Love (again)

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable."


~CS Lewis, The Four Love

I found that quote on a blog of a family who adopted a little girl who ended up going to live with Jesus. They are now caring for a baby who has some serious special needs. They are willing to risk their hearts to give her the love she needs. I hope I would do that.
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I cried (just a little) this morning. You might think I cry a lot, but I really don't, but from time to time I will cry a little and it usually happens on the weekend when I have time to actually think :).

Jeremy is so nice. He almost always gets up with the kids on the weekends and feeds them and lets me sleep. This morning I heard B making a lot of commotion. He's becoming a bit of a screamer when he doens't get what he wants. Just a little bit, but still, it's pretty loud. So, I went downstairs to see what was going on and little B was soooooo happy to see me. He just wanted some love. I held him while I got my coffee going and we chatted about all this screaming and he just looked at me and smiled as if nothing had been going on at all!! Jeremy came in and I said, "He needs a Mom. All boys need a mom." And then I cried...just a little bit. I can't stand it that if he leaves our house he will probably not have a Mom in his life. At least I don't think he will. So, I do pray that he will have loving Mom people in his life...maybe even a teacher who can give him some Mommy-like TLC.

One of my Bible study teachers pointed out to me that I GET to pray for him for years to come. I hadn't really thought about how huge that is. I will pray for him. Will you please pray for him too?